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第34章 THE THIRD EXTRACT FROM PECHORIN'S DIARYPRINCESS MA

Werner is a remarkable man,and that for many reasons.Like almost all medical men he is a sceptic and a materialist,but,at the same time,he is a genuine poet --a poet always in deeds and often in words,although he has never written two verses in his life.He has mastered all the living chords of the human heart,just as one learns the veins of a corpse,but he has never known how to avail himself of his knowledge.In like manner,it sometimes happens that an excellent anatomist does not know how to cure a fever.Werner usually made fun of his patients in private;but once I saw him weeping over a dying soldier...He was poor,and dreamed of millions,but he would not take a single step out of his way for the sake of money.He once told me that he would rather do a favour to an enemy than to a friend,because,in the latter case,it would mean selling his beneficence,whilst hatred only increases proportionately to the magnanimity of the adversary.He had a malicious tongue;and more than one good,simple soul has acquired the reputation of a vulgar fool through being labelled with one of his epigrams.His rivals,envious medical men of the watering-place,spread the report that he was in the habit of drawing caricatures of his patients.

The patients were incensed,and almost all of them discarded him.His friends,that is to say all the genuinely well-bred people who were serving in the Caucasus,vainly endeavoured to restore his fallen credit.

His outward appearance was of the type which,at the first glance,creates an unpleasant impres-sion,but which you get to like in course of time,when the eye learns to read in the ir-regular features the stamp of a tried and lofty soul.Instances have been known of women falling madly in love with men of that sort,and having no desire to exchange their ugliness for the beauty of the freshest and rosiest of Endymions.

We must give women their due:they possess an instinct for spiritual beauty,for which reason,possibly,men such as Werner love women so passionately.

Werner was small and lean and as weak as a baby.One of his legs was shorter than the other,as was the case with Byron.In comparison with his body,his head seemed enormous.His hair was cropped close,and the unevennesses of his cranium,thus laid bare,would have struck a phrenologist by reason of the strange intertexture of con-tradictory propensities.His little,ever restless,black eyes seemed as if they were endeavouring to fathom your thoughts.Taste and neatness were to be observed in his dress.His small,lean,sinewy hands flaunted themselves in bright-yellow gloves.His frock-coat,cravat and waistcoat were invariably of black.The young men dubbed him Mephistopheles;he pretended to be angry at the nickname,but in reality it flattered his vanity.

Werner and I soon understood each other and became friends,because I,for my part,am ill-adapted for friendship.Of two friends,one is always the slave of the other,although frequently neither acknowledges the fact to himself.Now,the slave I could not be;and to be the master would be a wearisome trouble,because,at the same time,deception would be required.Besides,I have servants and money!

Our friendship originated in the following circumstances.I met Werner at S----,in the midst of a numerous and noisy circle of young people.Towards the end of the evening the conversation took a philosophico-metaphysical turn.We discussed the subject of convictions,and each of us had some different conviction to declare.

"So far as I am concerned,"said the doctor,"I am convinced of one thing only"...

"And that is --?"I asked,desirous of learning the opinion of a man who had been silent till then.

"Of the fact,"he answered,"that sooner or later,one fine morning,I shall die.""I am better off than you,"I said."In addi-tion to that,I have a further conviction,namely,that,one very nasty evening,I had the misfor-tune to be born."

All the others considered that we were talking nonsense,but indeed not one of them said any-thing more sensible.From that moment we singled each other out amongst the crowd.We used frequently to meet and discuss abstract subjects in a very serious manner,until each observed that the other was throwing dust in his eyes.Then,looking significantly at each other --as,according to Cicero,the Roman augurs used to do --we would burst out laughing heartily and,having had our laugh,we would separate,well content with our evening.

I was lying on a couch,my eyes fixed upon the ceiling and my hands clasped behind my head,when Werner entered my room.He sat down in an easy chair,placed his cane in a corner,yawned,and announced that it was getting hot out of doors.I replied that the flies were bothering me --and we both fell silent.

"Observe,my dear doctor,"I said,"that,but for fools,the world would be a very dull place.

Look!Here are you and I,both sensible men!

We know beforehand that it is possible to dispute ad infinitum about everything --and so we do not dispute.Each of us knows almost all the other's secret thoughts:to us a single word is a whole history;we see the grain of every one of our feelings through a threefold husk.What is sad,we laugh at;what is laughable,we grieve at;but,to tell the truth,we are fairly indifferent,generally speaking,to everything except our-selves.Consequently,there can be no inter-change of feelings and thoughts between us;each of us knows all he cares to know about the other,and that knowledge is all he wants.One expedient remains --to tell the news.So tell me some news."Fatigued by this lengthy speech,I closed my eyes and yawned.The doctor answered after thinking awhile:

"There is an idea,all the same,in that non-sense of yours."

"Two,"I replied.

"Tell me one,and I will tell you the other.""Very well,begin!"I said,continuing to examine the ceiling and smiling inwardly.

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