登陆注册
15515800000044

第44章 XXXIII. THE GRAVE-SONG.

"Yonder is the grave-island, the silent isle; yonder also are the graves of my youth. Thither will I carry an evergreen wreath of life."Resolving thus in my heart, did I sail o'er the sea.--Oh, ye sights and scenes of my youth! Oh, all ye gleams of love, ye divine fleeting gleams! How could ye perish so soon for me! I think of you to-day as my dead ones.

From you, my dearest dead ones, cometh unto me a sweet savour, heart-opening and melting. Verily, it convulseth and openeth the heart of the lone seafarer.

Still am I the richest and most to be envied--I, the lonesomest one! For IHAVE POSSESSED you, and ye possess me still. Tell me: to whom hath there ever fallen such rosy apples from the tree as have fallen unto me?

Still am I your love's heir and heritage, blooming to your memory with many-hued, wild-growing virtues, O ye dearest ones!

Ah, we were made to remain nigh unto each other, ye kindly strange marvels;and not like timid birds did ye come to me and my longing--nay, but as trusting ones to a trusting one!

Yea, made for faithfulness, like me, and for fond eternities, must I now name you by your faithlessness, ye divine glances and fleeting gleams: no other name have I yet learnt.

Verily, too early did ye die for me, ye fugitives. Yet did ye not flee from me, nor did I flee from you: innocent are we to each other in our faithlessness.

To kill ME, did they strangle you, ye singing birds of my hopes! Yea, at you, ye dearest ones, did malice ever shoot its arrows--to hit my heart!

And they hit it! Because ye were always my dearest, my possession and my possessedness: ON THAT ACCOUNT had ye to die young, and far too early!

At my most vulnerable point did they shoot the arrow--namely, at you, whose skin is like down--or more like the smile that dieth at a glance!

But this word will I say unto mine enemies: What is all manslaughter in comparison with what ye have done unto me!

Worse evil did ye do unto me than all manslaughter; the irretrievable did ye take from me:--thus do I speak unto you, mine enemies!

Slew ye not my youth's visions and dearest marvels! My playmates took ye from me, the blessed spirits! To their memory do I deposit this wreath and this curse.

This curse upon you, mine enemies! Have ye not made mine eternal short, as a tone dieth away in a cold night! Scarcely, as the twinkle of divine eyes, did it come to me--as a fleeting gleam!

Thus spake once in a happy hour my purity: "Divine shall everything be unto me."Then did ye haunt me with foul phantoms; ah, whither hath that happy hour now fled!

"All days shall be holy unto me"--so spake once the wisdom of my youth: verily, the language of a joyous wisdom!

But then did ye enemies steal my nights, and sold them to sleepless torture: ah, whither hath that joyous wisdom now fled?

Once did I long for happy auspices: then did ye lead an owl-monster across my path, an adverse sign. Ah, whither did my tender longing then flee?

All loathing did I once vow to renounce: then did ye change my nigh ones and nearest ones into ulcerations. Ah, whither did my noblest vow then flee?

As a blind one did I once walk in blessed ways: then did ye cast filth on the blind one's course: and now is he disgusted with the old footpath.

And when I performed my hardest task, and celebrated the triumph of my victories, then did ye make those who loved me call out that I then grieved them most.

Verily, it was always your doing: ye embittered to me my best honey, and the diligence of my best bees.

To my charity have ye ever sent the most impudent beggars; around my sympathy have ye ever crowded the incurably shameless. Thus have ye wounded the faith of my virtue.

And when I offered my holiest as a sacrifice, immediately did your "piety"put its fatter gifts beside it: so that my holiest suffocated in the fumes of your fat.

And once did I want to dance as I had never yet danced: beyond all heavens did I want to dance. Then did ye seduce my favourite minstrel.

And now hath he struck up an awful, melancholy air; alas, he tooted as a mournful horn to mine ear!

Murderous minstrel, instrument of evil, most innocent instrument! Already did I stand prepared for the best dance: then didst thou slay my rapture with thy tones!

Only in the dance do I know how to speak the parable of the highest things:--and now hath my grandest parable remained unspoken in my limbs!

Unspoken and unrealised hath my highest hope remained! And there have perished for me all the visions and consolations of my youth!

How did I ever bear it? How did I survive and surmount such wounds? How did my soul rise again out of those sepulchres?

Yea, something invulnerable, unburiable is with me, something that would rend rocks asunder: it is called MY WILL. Silently doth it proceed, and unchanged throughout the years.

Its course will it go upon my feet, mine old Will; hard of heart is its nature and invulnerable.

Invulnerable am I only in my heel. Ever livest thou there, and art like thyself, thou most patient one! Ever hast thou burst all shackles of the tomb!

In thee still liveth also the unrealisedness of my youth; and as life and youth sittest thou here hopeful on the yellow ruins of graves.

Yea, thou art still for me the demolisher of all graves: Hail to thee, my Will! And only where there are graves are there resurrections.--Thus sang Zarathustra.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 智能生命新时代

    智能生命新时代

    林宇穿越到荒凉星,得到了零米一号,但是发现自己自己竟然不是穿越者......绝望日的临近,林宇为了朋友,为了得到资源只能以开公司的名科技公司这第一部主要是写林宇在地球的事情,主要描写科技独霸世界。零语操作系统系列改变了电子操作新模式,微粮生物技术开启了可持续新能源的,灵灵开创了聊天社交新模式,未来无人驾驶系统,梦幻影视处理系统......另一边我为了破坏始皇组织称霸世界的阴谋,进行了一场场惊心动魄的生死较量。
  • 痴罪

    痴罪

    许修,隶属国战部队,却又作为超越国战的king傲立于异能者之上吸血鬼,狼人,从来不是像童话中的那样温柔痴情,黑暗的夜中,随着他们的出现,伴随着的总是鲜血作为异能者的king,许修肩负着有关世界危亡的使命,他会怎么做?让我们拭目以待!
  • 时光因你而温暖

    时光因你而温暖

    别墅少爷和孤儿院小花的故事。他们本是两条平行线,却终于交错在了一起。--情节虚构,请勿模仿
  • 九天血帝

    九天血帝

    十年前,天玄宗一夜惊变,险遭毁灭,宗主龙战失踪,废物少主龙子轩沦为罪子,被贬为了宗门奴仆。十年间,小小少年饱受屈辱,备受欺凌。十年后,天弑觉醒,宿命轮回,不屈少年逆天崛起,以惊世血脉狂战天下,誓要在这血衣飘飘的年代打拼一世荣耀,用血泪与邪煞铸就天杀之名。血舞凌云战苍穹,吾意只手遮天。当无常命运被天地禁锢,当心中执念化作凌云大志,看小小少年龙子轩如何踏天而行,谱就一曲热血战歌,成为一代主宰天下的九天血帝!
  • 魔兽世界之华夏牧师

    魔兽世界之华夏牧师

    这,不是一个修仙成神的小说,这,只不过是一些都市异能的故事。这里没有满天的神佛,这里有的只是一些民间的传说。主角林文俊因为一次意外的变故,把魔兽世界里牧师的所有技能带到了现实当中,进入了传说中却又真实存在的政府异能组织机构,‘龙牙’,从而展开了一系列的传奇故事。降鬼怪、除僵尸护卫家园,斩忍者、斗花郎保卫祖国,神秘的欧洲狼人,恐怖的湘西赶尸,轰杀吸血鬼,挑战梵蒂冈一切尽在《华夏牧师》。
  • 名侦探柯南:蔷薇的绽放

    名侦探柯南:蔷薇的绽放

    蔷薇的绽放或许只有一瞬,但却是那么美丽。她是21世纪的天才高中生药剂师,却无奈穿越。如蔷薇般的美丽,却只为一人绽放。期待这朵蔷薇的故事吧。
  • 我与书的故事3

    我与书的故事3

    本书是“世界读书日”征文大赛作品集,宁夏青少年围绕“我与书的故事”这一主题讲述自己的读书方法、读书风貌、读书经历,回顾读书对自己成长的影响。分小学组、初中组、高中组,入选作品千篇,编辑将其编校加工整理成书。本书能让同学们乐于读书、勤于读书,让书记的墨香弥漫在学生的成才之路。
  • 谜之印记

    谜之印记

    只因一个特殊的印记,他们聚在了一起,像是偶遇,又像是冥冥之中早已注定的……………未经世事的少年少女们,又是否能解开印记之谜?
  • 遇上一个人要多久

    遇上一个人要多久

    当逗逼遇上逗逼,会摩擦出什么样的爱情火花呢?PS:柚子周日周四不能更哦~
  • 六爷拐娇柒,说好的禁欲受呢

    六爷拐娇柒,说好的禁欲受呢

    “顾柒!以后不许沾花惹草!不许看其他男人和女人!你是爷的!”陆洺咬牙道,才三天没见他就去找别人了,照这样下去以后还不翻天?“六爷~宝宝没有~”顾柒郁闷,他不过去见个朋友,仅此而已,这都会吃醋……“不过我喜欢。没有?嗯?再说一遍试试!”陆洺怒火冲天,看来几天没调教她,不乖了。想到这里,陆洺一把抱起顾柒,扔在床上。“六……唔~”顾柒在床上凌乱了……谁来把这Y的拖走啊啊啊!!小肉怡情,大肉伤身~