登陆注册
15460000000049

第49章 Chapter XIX(1)

HENCHARD and Elizabeth sat conversing by the fire. It was three weeks after Mrs Henchard's funeral; the candles were not lighted, and a restless, acrobatic flame, poised on a coal, called from the shady walls the smiles of all shapes that could respond - the old pier-glass, with gilt columns and huge entablature, the picture-frames, sundry knobs and handles, and the brass rosette at the bottom of each riband bell-pull on either side of the chimney-piece.

"Elizabeth, do you think much of old times?" said Henchard.

"Yes, sir; often," said she.

"Who do you put in your pictures of 'em?"

"Mother and father - nobody else hardly."

Henchard always looked like one bent on resisting pain when Elizabeth-Jane spoke of Richard Newson as "father". "Ah! I am out of all that, am I not?"he said... "Was Newson a kind father?"

"Yes, sir; very."

Henchard's face settled into an expression of stolid lonelines which gradually modulated into something softer. "Suppose I had been your real father?" he said. "Would you have cared for me as much as you cared for Richard Newson?""I can't think it," she said quickly. "I can think of no other as my father, except my father."Henchard's wife was dissevered from him by death; his friend and helper Farfrae by estrangement; Elizabeth-Jane by ignorance. It seemed to him that only one of them could possibly be recalled, and that was the girl.

His mind began vibrating between the wish to reveal himself to her and the policy of leaving well alone, till he could no longer sit still. He walked up and down, and then he came and stood behind her chair, looking down upon the top of her head. He could no longer restrain his impulse.

"What did your mother tell you about me - my history?" he asked.

"That you were related by marriage."

"She should have told more - before you knew me! Then my task would not have been such a hard one... Elizabeth, it is I who am your father, and not Richard Newson. Shame alone prevented your wretched parents from owning this to you while both of 'em were alive."The back of Elizabeth's head remained still, and her shoulders did not denote even the movements of breathing. Henchard went on: "I'd rather have your scorn, your fear, anything than your ignorance; 'tis that I hate.

Your mother and I were man and wife when we were young. What you saw was our second marriage. Your mother was too honest. We had thought each other dead - and - Newson became her husband."This was the nearest approach Henchard could make to the full truth.

As far as he personally was concerned he would have screened nothing; but he showed a respect for the young girl's sex and years worthy of a better man.

When he had gone on to give details which a whole series of slight unregarded incidents in her past life strangely corroborated; when, in short, she believed his story to be true, she became greatly agitated, and turning round to the table flung her face upon it weeping.

"Don't cry - don't cry!" said Henchard, with vehement pathos, "I can't bear it, I won't bear it. I am your father; why should you cry? Am I so dreadful, so hateful to 'ee? Don't take against me, Elizabeth-Jane!" he cried, grasping her wet hand. "Don't take against me - though I was a drinking man once and used your mother roughly - I'll be kinder to you than he was! I'll do anything, if you will only look upon me as your father!"She tried to stand up and confront him trustfully; but she could not;she was troubled at his presence, like the brethren at the avowal of Joseph.

"I don't want you to come to me all of a sudden," said Henchard in jerks, and moving like a great tree in a wind. "No, Elizabeth, I don't. I'll go away and not see you till tomorrow, or when you like; and then I'll show 'ee papers to prove my words. There, I am gone, and won't disturb you any more... 'Twas I that chose your name, my daughter; your mother wanted it Susan. There, don't forget 'twas I gave you your name!" He went out at the door and shut her softly in, and she heard him go away into the garden.

But he had not done. Before she had moved, or in any way recovered from the effect of his disclosure, he reappeared.

"One word more, Elizabeth," he said. "You'll take my surname now - hey?

Your mother was against it; but it will be much more pleasant to me. 'Tis legally yours, you know. But nobody need know that. You shall take it as if by choice. I'll talk to my lawyer - I don't know the law of it exactly;but will you do this - let me put a few lines into the newspaper that such is to be your name?""If it is my name I must have it, mustn't I?" she asked.

"Well, well; usage is everything in these matters.""I wonder why mother didn't wish it?"

"Oh some whim of the poor soul's. Now get a bit of paper and draw up a paragraph as I shall tell you. But let's have a light.""I can see by the firelight," she answered. "Yes - I'd rather.""Very well."

She got a piece of paper, and bending over the fender wrote at his dictation words which he had evidently got by heart from some advertisement or other - words to the effect that she, the writer, hitherto known as Elizabeth-Jane Newson, was going to call herself Elizabeth-Jane Henchard forthwith. It was done, and fastened up and directed to the office of the Casterbridge Chronicle.

"Now," said Henchard, with the blaze of satisfaction that he always emitted when he had carried his point - though tenderness softened it this time - I'll go upstairs and hunt for some documents that will prove it all to you. But I won't trouble you with them till tomorrow. Good-night, my Elizabeth-Jane!"He was gone before the bewildered girl could realize what it all meant, or adjust her filial sense to the new centre of gravity. She was thankful that he had left her to herself for the evening, and sat down over the fire. Here she remained in silence, and wept - not for her mother now, but for the genial sailor Richard Newson, to whom she seemed doing a wrong.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 那时花再开

    那时花再开

    出生在魔界的魔皇之女北堂离歌最爱木槿花,随之认识掌管花界天神南荣槿。自古以来,神魔殊途,终无结果。苦苦等待,又会换来怎样的结局?一段神与魔之间的爱恨纠葛就此展开。
  • 重生之机甲战歌

    重生之机甲战歌

    银河时代,是属于强者的时代。一夕之间,华容双亲皆逝,家破人亡,从世家千金沦落入贫民区;多年之后,未婚夫家族利用华家产业高调崛起,才知从前种种,有迹可循。空有天赋,不得施展;十年筹谋,终于复仇。华容在死亡的那一刻想着:“可惜这一生,没来得及按照自己的想法痛痛快快活那么一次……”没关系,少女,恭喜你中了再来一次!重生之后,华容总算明白了——银河时代,怎么能没有机甲,没有热血,没有征服星辰大海的梦想?!旧的一生太长,新的一生太短,怎么舍得只换些富贵安逸,不去看星海辉煌,银河璀璨。
  • 《樱花树之下:我们恋爱吧》

    《樱花树之下:我们恋爱吧》

    她喜欢的人,喜欢另一个女生,另一个男子喜欢她,但却不喜欢他,她被半血统的韩国给迷住了心。但他们没有那么容易在一起
  • 全能天才之校园灵凰

    全能天才之校园灵凰

    16岁的端木世家九小姐端木悠冉,在无意中得知自己的使命,带着帅哥闯荡异世,浪荡公子哥?清纯小萌货?邪魅谪仙男?哪个不倒在本小姐的石榴裙下!
  • 绝世狂兵在校园

    绝世狂兵在校园

    男人,可以没钱,但一定要骚!且看狂兵唐枫如何纵情花都,打下一片暧昧天下!
  • 糕点专宠迷糊小公主

    糕点专宠迷糊小公主

    纤纤小手画一个心,爱的流光益彩。太妃糖加巧克力,甜到天旋地转,他曾陪她度过一个个关卡,她也曾关系过他,他说她的笑声像夏天的烟火喧嚣又灿烂,在一个仲夏夜,他对她说“我喜欢你”至此,他们种下一个秘密,约定永生永世在一起。?????可是,从美国回来后的他,即使失明也深爱着她,深爱着那个夏天般的女孩,但却狠下心来疏远她,供手把她让给自己的情敌。可谁也不知道这是为什么,这是一个秘密,谁也不知道,直到有一天,她知道了真相……她和他会怎样?
  • 罗生纪

    罗生纪

    他带着不可告人的目的出现在九州界,以旷古奇才的身份踏上修仙路,九州修仙界从那一刻起不再安宁,一个个惊天阴谋纷纷被揭开,当他最终直面那个高高在上的敌人时,不禁微微皱眉:“想打架我不反对,但你丫能否洗个澡先?”
  • 江山不老

    江山不老

    诸国并存故必有乱世,风云际会故必有人杰。贵族子弟楚离身逢乱世,几番曲折,终成时势所造英雄。想看看不了血洒春风花锦绣,想断断不了乱世狼烟相思愁,想忘忘不了爱恨悲欢离人瘦,想等等不了一生戎马锦衣侯。江山不老,老了那少年雄姿打马去,老了那一往情深付东流。
  • 花开盛夏夏未至

    花开盛夏夏未至

    这个世界上总有那么一个人。你费尽心机想要得到。你奢求上天对他的爱情。能比一生多一秒。二十多年的普通人生活。突然发现自己拥有了一个系统。而且是某个人黑心的强加在自己身上的。用他的话来说就是。就为了缠着你。架空时代。
  • 闪婚蜜恋,别太宠我

    闪婚蜜恋,别太宠我

    结婚前晚,未婚夫当着她的面与她姐姐搞暧昧,第二天结婚也没来,她跑去酒吧买醉,不料被姐姐下药,被吃了个干净……不料对方是个霸道总裁,为了报复,她与他匆匆结婚了…对她照顾的无微不至,宠的用语言形容不了……