She was not praying; she was trembling- trembling all over.
Vibration was easy to her, was in fact too constant with her, and she found herself now humming like a smitten harp.She only asked, however, to put on the cover, to case herself again in brown holland, but she wished to resist her excitement, and the attitude of devotion, which she kept for some time, seemed to help her to be still.She intensely rejoiced that Caspar Goodwood was gone; there was something in having thus got rid of him that was like the payment, for a stamped receipt, of some debt too long on her mind.As she felt the glad relief she bowed her head a little lower; the sense was there, throbbing in her heart; it was part of her emotion, but it was a thing to be ashamed of- it was profane and out of place.It was not for some ten minutes that she rose from her knees, and even when she came back to the sitting-room her tremor had not quite subsided.It had had, verily, two causes: part of it was to be accounted for by her long discussion with Mr.Goodwood, but it might be feared that the rest was simply the enjoyment she found in the exercise of her power.She sat down in the same chair again and took up her book, but without going through the form of opening the volume.
She leaned back, with that low, soft, aspiring murmur with which she often uttered her response to accidents of which the brighter side was not superficially obvious, and yielded to the satisfaction of having refused two ardent suitors in a fortnight.That love of liberty of which she had given Caspar Goodwood so bold a sketch was as yet almost exclusively theoretic; she had not been able to indulge it on a large scale.But it appeared to her she had done something; she had tasted of the delight, if not of battle, at least of victory; she had done what was truest to her plan.In the glow of this consciousness the image of Mr.Goodwood taking his sad walk homeward through the dingy town presented itself with a certain reproachful force; so that, as at the same moment the door of the room was opened, she rose with an apprehension that he had come back.But it was only Henrietta Stackpole returning from her dinner.
Miss Stackpole immediately saw that our young lady had been "through" something, and indeed the discovery demanded no great penetration.She went straight up to her friend, who received her without a greeting.Isabel's elation in having sent Caspar Goodwood back to America presupposed her being in a manner glad he had come to see her; but at the same time she perfectly remembered Henrietta had had no right to set a trap for her."Has he been here, dear?"the latter yearningly asked.
Isabel turned away and for some moments answered nothing."You acted very wrongly," she declared at last.
"I acted for the best.I only hope you acted as well.""You're not the judge.I can't trust you," said Isabel.
This declaration was unflattering, but Henrietta was much too unselfish to heed the charge it conveyed; she cared only for what it intimated with regard to her friend."Isabel Archer," she observed with equal abruptness and solemnity, "if you marry one of these people I'll never speak to you again!""Before making so terrible a threat you had better wait till I'm asked," Isabel replied.Never having said a word to Miss Stackpole about Lord Warburton's overtures, she had now no impulse whatever to justify herself to Henrietta by telling her that she had refused that nobleman.
"Oh, you'll be asked quick enough, once you get off on the Continent.Annie Climber was asked three times in Italy- poor plain little Annie.""Well, if Annie Climber wasn't captured why should I be?""I don't believe Annie was pressed; but you'll be.""That's a flattering conviction," said Isabel without alarm.
"I don't flatter you, Isabel, I tell you the truth!" cried her friend."I hope you don't mean to tell me that you didn't give Mr.
Goodwood some hope."
"I don't see why I should tell you anything; as I said to you just now, I can't trust you.But since you're so much interested in Mr.
Goodwood I won't conceal from you that he returns immediately to America.""You don't mean to say you've sent him off? " Henrietta almost shrieked.
"I asked him to leave me alone; and I ask you the same, Henrietta." Miss Stackpole glittered for an instant with dismay and then passed to the mirror over the chimney-piece and took off her bonnet."I hope you've enjoyed your dinner," Isabel went on.
But her companion was not to be diverted by frivolous propositions."Do you know where you're going, Isabel Archer?""Just now I'm going to bed," said Isabel with persistent frivolity.
"Do you know where you're drifting?" Henrietta pursued, holding out her bonnet delicately.
"No, I haven't the least idea, and I find it very pleasant not to know.A swift carriage, of a dark night, rattling with four horses over roads that one can't see- that's my idea of happiness.""Mr.Goodwood certainly didn't teach you to say such things as that-like the heroine of an immoral novel," said Miss Stackpole."You're drifting to some great mistake."Isabel was irritated by her friend's interference, yet she still tried to think what truth this declaration could represent.She could think of nothing that diverted her from saying: "You must be very fond of me, Henrietta, to be willing to be so aggressive.""I love you intensely, Isabel," said Miss Stackpole with feeling.
"Well, if you love me intensely let me as intensely alone.I asked that of Mr.Goodwood, and I must also ask it of you.""Take care you're not let alone too much.""That's what Mr.Goodwood said to me.I told him I must take the risks.""You're a creature of risks- you make me shudder!" cried Henrietta."When does Mr.Goodwood return to America?""I don't know- he didn't tell me."
"Perhaps you didn't enquire," said Henrietta with the note of righteous irony.
