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She had been shocked by his appearance when he came into the room; she had forgotten how ill he looked.In spite of Corfu he looked very ill to-day, and she wondered if he were really worse or if she were simply disaccustomed to living with an invalid.Poor Ralph made no nearer approach to conventional beauty as he advanced in life, and the now apparently complete loss of his health had done little to mitigate the natural oddity of his person.Blighted and battered, but still responsive and still ironic, his face was like a lighted lantern patched with paper and unsteadily held; his thin whisker languished upon a lean cheek; the exorbitant curve of his nose defined itself more sharply.Lean he was altogether, lean and long and loose-jointed;an accidental cohesion of relaxed angles.His brown velvet jacket had become perennial; his hands had fixed themselves in his pockets;he shambled and stumbled and shuffled in a manner that denoted great physical helplessness.It was perhaps this whimsical gait that helped to mark his character more than ever as that of the humorous invalid-the invalid for whom even his own disabilities are part of the general joke.They might well indeed with Ralph have been the chief cause of the want of seriousness marking his view of a world in which the reason for his own continued presence was past finding out.Isabel had grown fond of his ugliness; his awkwardness had become dear to her.They had been sweetened by association; they struck her as the very terms on which it had been given him to be charming.He was so charming that her sense of his being ill had hitherto had a sort of comfort in it; the state of his health had seemed not a limitation, but a kind of intellectual advantage; it absolved him from all professional and official emotions and left him the luxury of being exclusively personal.The personality so resulting was delightful; he had remained proof against the staleness of disease; he had had to consent to be deplorably ill, yet had somehow escaped being formally sick.Such had been the girl's impression of her cousin;and when she had pitied him it was only on reflection.As she reflected a good deal she had allowed him a certain amount of compassion; but she always had a dread of wasting that essence-a precious article, worth more to the giver than to any one else.Now, however, it took no great sensibility to feel that poor Ralph's tenure of life was less elastic than it should be.He was a bright, free, generous spirit, he had all the illumination of wisdom and none of its pedantry, and yet he was distressfully dying.

Isabel noted afresh that life was certainly hard for some people, and she felt a delicate glow of shame as she thought how easy it now promised to become for herself.She was prepared to learn that Ralph was not pleased with her engagement; but she was not prepared, in spite of her affection for him, to let this fact spoil the situation.She was not even prepared, or so she thought, to resent his want of sympathy; for it would be his privilege-it would be indeed his natural line-to find fault with any step she might take toward marriage.One's cousin always pretended to hate one's husband; that was traditional, classical; it was a part of one's cousin's always pretending to adore one.Ralph was nothing if not critical; and though she would certainly, other things being equal, have been as glad to marry to please him as to please any one, it would be absurd to regard as important that her choice should square with his views.What were his views after all? He had pretended to believe she had better have married Lord Warburton; but this was only because she had refused that excellent man.If she had accepted him Ralph would certainly have taken another tone; he always took the opposite.You could criticize any marriage; it was the essence of a marriage to be open to criticism.How well she herself, should she only give her mind to it, might criticize this union of her own! She had other employment, however, and Ralph was welcome to relieve her of the care.Isabel was prepared to be most patient and most indulgent.He must have seen that, and this made it the more odd he should say nothing.

After three days had elapsed without his speaking our young woman wearied of waiting; dislike it as he would, he might at least go through the form.We, who know more about poor Ralph than his cousin, may easily believe that during the hours that followed his arrival at Palazzo Crescentini he had privately gone through many forms.His mother had literally greeted him with the great news, which had been even more sensibly chilling than Mrs.Touchett's maternal kiss.Ralph was shocked and humiliated; his calculations had been false and the person in the world in whom he was most interested was lost.He drifted about the house like a rudderless vessel in a rocky stream, or sat in the garden of the palace on a great cane chair, his long legs extended, his head thrown back and his hat pulled over his eyes.He felt cold about the heart; he had never liked anything less.What could he do, what could he say? If the girl were irreclaimable could he pretend to like it? To attempt to reclaim her was permissible only if the attempt should succeed.To try to persuade her of anything sordid or sinister in the man to whose deep art she had succumbed would be decently discreet only in the event of her being persuaded.Otherwise he should simply have damned himself.It cost him an equal effort to speak his thought and to dissemble; he could neither assent with sincerity nor protest with hope.Meanwhile he knew-or rather he supposed-that the affianced pair were daily renewing their mutual vows.Osmond at this moment showed himself little at Palazzo Crescentini; but Isabel met him every day elsewhere, as she was free to do after their engagement had been made public.She had taken a carriage by the month, so as not to be indebted to her aunt for the means of pursuing a course of which Mrs.Touchett disapproved, and she drove in the morning to the Cascine.This suburban wilderness, during the early hours, was void of all intruders, and our young lady, joined by her lover in its quietest part, strolled with him a while through the grey Italian shade and listened to the nightingales.

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