"She loves him?" he said in a low husky voice. "You say she loves him?""Yes, Mr. Switzer, she loves him," said Jane. "She cannot help herself. No one can help one's self. You must not blame her for that, Mr. Switzer.""She does not love me," said Switzer as if stunned by the utterly inexplicable phenomenon. "But she did once," he cried. "She did before that schwein came." No words could describe the hate and contempt in his voice. He appeared to concentrate his passions struggling for expression, love, rage, hate, wounded pride, into one single stream of fury. Grinding his teeth, foaming, sputtering, he poured forth his words in an impetuous torrent.
"He stole her from me! this schwein of an Englishman! He came like a thief, like a dog and a dog's son and stole her! She was mine!
She would have been mine! She loved me! She was learning to love me. I was too quick with her once, but she had forgiven me and was learning to love me. But this pig!" He gnashed his teeth upon the word.
"Stop, Mr. Switzer," said Jane, controlling her agitation and her terror. "You must not speak to me like that. You are forgetting yourself.""Forgetting myself!" he raged, his face livid blue and white.
"Forgetting myself! Yes, yes! I forget everything but one thing.
That I shall not forget. I shall not forget him nor how he stole her from me. Gott in Himmel! Him I shall never forget. No, when these hairs are white," he struck his head with his clenched fist, "I shall still remember and curse him." Abruptly he stayed the rush of his words. Then more deliberately but with an added intensity of passion he continued, "But no, never shall he have her. Never. God hears me. Never. Him I will kill, destroy." He had wrought himself up into a paroxysm of uncontrollable fury, his breath came in jerking gasps, his features worked with convulsive twitchings, his jaws champed and snapped upon his words like a dog's worrying rats.
To Jane it seemed a horrible and repulsive sight, yet she could not stay her pity from him. She remembered it was love that had moved him to this pitch of madness. Love after all was a terrible thing.
She could not despise him. She could only pity. Her very silence at length recalled him. For some moments he stood struggling to regain his composure. Gradually he became aware that her eyes were resting on his face. The pity in her eyes touched him, subdued him, quenched the heat of his rage.
"I have lost her," he said, his lips quivering. "She will never change.""No, she will never change," replied Jane gently. "But you can always love her. And she will be happy.""She will be happy?" he exclaimed, looking at her in astonishment.
"But she will not be mine."
"No, she will not be yours," said Jane still very gently, "but she will be happy, and after all, that is what you most want. You are anxious chiefly that she shall be happy. You would give everything to make her happy.""I would give my life. Oh, gladly, gladly, I would give my life, Iwould give my soul, I would give everything I have on earth and heaven too.""Then don't grieve too much," said Jane, putting her hand on his arm. "She will be happy.""But what of me?" he cried pitifully, his voice and lips trembling like those of a little child in distress. "Shall I be happy?""No, not now," replied Jane steadily, striving to keep back her tears, "perhaps some day. But you will think more of her happiness than of your own. Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy."For some moments the man stood as if trying to understand what she had said. Then with a new access of grief and rage, he cried, "But my God! My God! I want her. I cannot live without her. I could make her happy too.""No, never," said Jane. "She loves him."
"Ach--so. Yes, she loves him, and I--hate him. He is the cause of this. Some day I will kill him. I will kill him.""Then she would never be happy again," said Jane, and her face was full of pain and of pity.
"Go away," he said harshly. "Go away. You know not what you say.
Some day I shall make him suffer as I suffer to-day. God hears me.
Some day." He lifted his hands high above his head. Then with a despairing cry, "Oh, I have lost her, I have lost her," he turned from Jane and rushed into the woods.
Shaken, trembling and penetrated with pity for him, Jane made her way toward the office, near which she found Larry with the manager discussing an engineering problem which appeared to interest them both.
"Where's Ernest?" inquired Larry.
"He has just gone," said Jane, struggling to speak quietly. "Ithink we must hurry, Larry. Come, please. Good-bye, Mr. Steinberg."She hurried away toward the horses, leaving Larry to follow.
"What is it, Jane?" said Larry when they were on their way.
"Why didn't you tell me, Larry, that he was fond of Kathleen?" she cried indignantly. "I hurt him terribly, and, oh, it was awful to see a man like that.""What do you say? Did he cut up rough?" said Larry.
Jane made no reply, but her face told its own story of shock and suffering.
"He need not have let out upon you, Jane, anyway," said Larry.
"Don't, Larry. You don't understand. He loves Kathleen. You don't know anything about it. How can you?""Oh, he will get over it in time," said Larry with a slight laugh.
Jane flashed on him a look of indignation. "Oh, how can you, Larry? It was just terrible to see him. But you do not know," she added with a touch of bitterness unusual with her.
"One thing I do know," said Larry. "I would not pour out my grief on some one else. I would try to keep it to myself."But Jane refused to look at him or to speak again on the matter.
