The fact is, Carley, I miss writing to you more than I miss anything of my old life.I'll bet you have a trunkful of letters from me--unless you've destroyed them.I'm not going to say how I miss your letters.But I will say you wrote the most charming and fascinating letters of anyone I ever knew, quite aside from any sentiment.You knew, of course, that I had no other girl correspondent.Well, I got along fairly well before you came West, but I'd be an awful liar if I denied I didn't get lonely for you and your letters.It's different now that you've been to Oak Creek.I'm alone most of the time and I dream a lot, and I'm afraid I see you here in my cabin, and along the brook, and under the pines, and riding Calico--which you came to do well--and on my hogpen fence--and, oh, everywhere! I don't want you to think I'm down in the mouth, for I'm not.I'll take my medicine.But, Carley, you spoiled me, and I miss hearing from you, and Idon't see why it wouldn't be all right for you to send me a friendly letter occasionally.
It is autumn now.I wish you could see Arizona canyons in their gorgeous colors.We have had frost right along and the mornings are great.There's a broad zigzag belt of gold halfway up the San Francisco peaks, and that is the aspen thickets taking on their fall coat.Here in the canyon you'd think there was blazing fire everywhere.The vines and the maples are red, scarlet, carmine, cerise, magenta, all the hues of flame.The oak leaves are turning russet gold, and the sycamores are yellow green.Up on the desert the other day I rode across a patch of asters, lilac and lavender, almost purple.I had to get off and pluck a handful.And then what do you think? I dug up the whole bunch, roots and all, and planted them on the sunny side of my cabin.I rather guess your love of flowers engendered this remarkable susceptibility in me.
I'm home early most every afternoon now, and I like the couple of hours loafing around.Guess it's bad for me, though.You know I seldom hunt, and the trout in the pool here are so tame now they'll almost eat out of my hand.I haven't the heart to fish for them.The squirrels, too, have grown tame and friendly.There's a red squirrel that climbs up on my table.And there's a chipmunk who lives in my cabin and runs over my bed.I've a new pet--the little pig you christened Pinky.After he had the wonderful good fortune to be caressed and named by you I couldn't think of letting him grow up in an ordinary piglike manner.So I fetched him home.My dog, Moze, was jealous at first and did not like this intrusion, but now they are good friends and sleep together.Flo has a kitten she's going to give me, and then, as Hutter says, I'll be "Jake."My occupation during these leisure hours perhaps would strike my old friends East as idle, silly, mawkish.But I believe you will understand me.
I have the pleasure of doing nothing, and of catching now and then a glimpse of supreme joy in the strange state of thinking nothing.Tennyson came close to this in his "Lotus Eaters." Only to see--only to feel is enough!
Sprawled on the warm sweet pine needles, I breathe through them the breath of the earth and am somehow no longer lonely.I cannot, of course, see the sunset, but I watch for its coming on the eastern wall of the canyon.I see the shadow slowly creep up, driving the gold before it, until at last the canyon rim and pines are turned to golden fire.I watch the sailing eagles as they streak across the gold, and swoop up into the blue, and pass out of sight.I watch the golden flush fade to gray, and then, the canyon slowly fills with purple shadows.This hour of twilight is the silent and melancholy one.Seldom is there any sound save the soft rush of the water over the stones, and that seems to die away.For a moment, perhaps, I am Hiawatha alone in his forest home, or a more primitive savage, feeling the great, silent pulse of nature, happy in unconsciousness, like a beast of the wild.But only for an instant do I ever catch this fleeting state.Next I am Glenn Kilbourne of West Fork, doomed and haunted by memories of the past.The great looming walls then become no longer blank.They are vast pages of the history of my life, with its past and present, and, alas! its future.Everything time does is written on the stones.And my stream seems to murmur the sad and ceaseless flow of human life, with its music and its misery.
Then, descending from the sublime to the humdrum and necessary, I heave a sigh, and pull myself together, and go in to make biscuits and fry ham.But I should not forget to tell you that before I do go in, very often my looming, wonderful walls and crags weave in strange shadowy characters the beautiful and unforgettable face of Carley Burch!
I append what little news Oak Creek affords.
That blamed old bald eagle stole another of my pigs.
I am doing so well with my hog-raising that Hutter wants to come in with me, giving me an interest in his sheep.
It is rumored some one has bought the Deep Lake section I wanted for a ranch.I don't know who.Hutter was rather noncommittal.
Charley, the herder, had one of his queer spells the other day, and swore to me he had a letter from you.He told the blamed lie with a sincere and placid eye, and even a smile of pride.Queer guy, that Charley!
Flo and Lee Stanton had another quarrel--the worst yet, Lee tells me.Flo asked a girl friend out from Flag and threw her in Lee's way, so to speak, and when Lee retaliated by making love to the girl Flo got mad.Funny creatures, you girls! Flo rode with me from High Falls to West Fork, and never showed the slightest sign of trouble.In fact she was delightfully gay.She rode Calico, and beat me bad in a race.
Adios, Carley.Won't you write me?
GLENN.
No sooner had Carley read the letter through to the end than she began it all over again, and on this second perusal she lingered over passages--only to reread them.That suggestion of her face sculptured by shadows on the canyon walls seemed to thrill her very soul.
She leaped up from the reading to cry out something that was unutterable.
