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This idea was most in harmony with his frame of mind.The perspiration started out upon his face with his efforts; but, alas! his figures, attitudes, groups, thoughts, arranged themselves stiffly, disconnectedly.His hand and his imagination had been too long confined to one groove; and the fruitless effort to escape from the bonds and fetters which he had imposed upon himself, showed itself in irregularities and errors.He had despised the long, wearisome ladder to knowledge, and the first fundamental law of the future great man, hard work.He gave vent to his vexation.He ordered all his later productions to be taken out of his studio, all the fashionable, lifeless pictures, all the portraits of hussars, ladies, and councillors of state.

He shut himself up alone in his room, would order no food, and devoted himself entirely to his work.He sat toiling like a scholar.But how pitifully wretched was all which proceeded from his hand! He was stopped at every step by his ignorance of the very first principles:

simple ignorance of the mechanical part of his art chilled all inspiration and formed an impassable barrier to his imagination.His brush returned involuntarily to hackneyed forms: hands folded themselves in a set attitude; heads dared not make any unusual turn;the very garments turned out commonplace, and would not drape themselves to any unaccustomed posture of the body.And he felt and saw this all himself.

"But had I really any talent?" he said at length: "did not I deceive myself?" Uttering these words, he turned to the early works which he had painted so purely, so unselfishly, in former days, in his wretched cabin yonder in lonely Vasilievsky Ostroff.He began attentively to examine them all; and all the misery of his former life came back to him."Yes," he cried despairingly, "I had talent: the signs and traces of it are everywhere visible--"He paused suddenly, and shivered all over.His eyes encountered other eyes fixed immovably upon him.It was that remarkable portrait which he had bought in the Shtchukinui Dvor.All this time it had been covered up, concealed by other pictures, and had utterly gone out of his mind.Now, as if by design, when all the fashionable portraits and paintings had been removed from the studio, it looked forth, together with the productions of his early youth.As he recalled all the strange events connected with it; as he remembered that this singular portrait had been, in a manner, the cause of his errors; that the hoard of money which he had obtained in such peculiar fashion had given birth in his mind to all the wild caprices which had destroyed his talent--madness was on the point of taking possession of him.At once he ordered the hateful portrait to be removed.

But his mental excitement was not thereby diminished.His whole being was shaken to its foundation; and he suffered that fearful torture which is sometimes exhibited when a feeble talent strives to display itself on a scale too great for it and cannot do so.A horrible envy took possession of him--an envy which bordered on madness.The gall flew to his heart when he beheld a work which bore the stamp of talent.He gnashed his teeth, and devoured it with the glare of a basilisk.He conceived the most devilish plan which ever entered into the mind of man, and he hastened with the strength of madness to carry it into execution.He began to purchase the best that art produced of every kind.Having bought a picture at a great price, he transported it to his room, flung himself upon it with the ferocity of a tiger, cut it, tore it, chopped it into bits, and stamped upon it with a grin of delight.

The vast wealth he had amassed enabled him to gratify this devilish desire.He opened his bags of gold and unlocked his coffers.No monster of ignorance ever destroyed so many superb productions of art as did this raging avenger.At any auction where he made his appearance, every one despaired at once of obtaining any work of art.

It seemed as if an angry heaven had sent this fearful scourge into the world expressly to destroy all harmony.Scorn of the world was expressed in his countenance.His tongue uttered nothing save biting and censorious words.He swooped down like a harpy into the street:

and his acquaintances, catching sight of him in the distance, sought to turn aside and avoid a meeting with him, saying that it poisoned all the rest of the day.

Fortunately for the world and art, such a life could not last long:

his passions were too overpowering for his feeble strength.Attacks of madness began to recur more frequently, and ended at last in the most frightful illness.A violent fever, combined with galloping consumption, seized upon him with such violence, that in three days there remained only a shadow of his former self.To this was added indications of hopeless insanity.Sometimes several men were unable to hold him.The long-forgotten, living eyes of the portrait began to torment him, and then his madness became dreadful.All the people who surrounded his bed seemed to him horrible portraits.The portrait doubled and quadrupled itself; all the walls seemed hung with portraits, which fastened their living eyes upon him; portraits glared at him from the ceiling, from the floor; the room widened and lengthened endlessly, in order to make room for more of the motionless eyes.The doctor who had undertaken to attend him, having learned something of his strange history, strove with all his might to fathom the secret connection between the visions of his fancy and the occurrences of his life, but without the slightest success.The sick man understood nothing, felt nothing, save his own tortures, and gave utterance only to frightful yells and unintelligible gibberish.At last his life ended in a final attack of unutterable suffering.

Nothing could be found of all his great wealth; but when they beheld the mutilated fragments of grand works of art, the value of which exceeded a million, they understood the terrible use which had been made of it.

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