I grew aware of existence，aware also of the profound，the infinite cold.I was intensely blessed--more blessed，I know，than my heart，imagining，can now recall.I could not think of warmth with the least suggestion of pleasure.I knew that I had enjoyed it，but could not remember how.The cold had soothed every care，dissolved every pain，comforted every sorrow.COMFORTED？Nay；sorrow was swallowed up in the life drawing nigh to restore every good and lovely thing a hundredfold！I lay at peace，full of the quietest expectation，breathing the damp odours of Earth's bountiful bosom，aware of the souls of primroses，daisies and snowdrops，patiently waiting in it for the Spring.
How convey the delight of that frozen，yet conscious sleep！I had no more to stand up！had only to lie stretched out and still！How cold I was，words cannot tell；yet I grew colder and colder--and welcomed the cold yet more and more.I grew continuously less conscious of myself，continuously more conscious of bliss，unimaginable yet felt.I had neither made it nor prayed for it：it was mine in virtue of existence！and existence was mine in virtue of a Will that dwelt in mine.
Then the dreams began to arrive--and came crowding.--I lay naked on a snowy peak.The white mist heaved below me like a billowy sea.
The cold moon was in the air with me，and above the moon and me the colder sky，in which the moon and I dwelt.I was Adam，waiting for God to breathe into my nostrils the breath of life.--I was not Adam，but a child in the bosom of a mother white with a radiant whiteness.I was a youth on a white horse，leaping from cloud to cloud of a blue heaven，hasting calmly to some blessed goal.For centuries I dreamed--or was it chiliads？or only one long night？--But why ask？for time had nothing to do with me；I was in the land of thought--farther in，higher up than the seven dimensions，the ten senses：I think I was where I am--in the heart of God.--I dreamed away dim cycles in the centre of a melting glacier，the spectral moon drawing nearer and nearer，the wind and the welter of a torrent growing in my ears.I lay and heard them：the wind and the water and the moon sang a peaceful waiting for a redemption drawing nigh.
I dreamed cycles，I say，but，for aught I knew or can tell，they were the solemn，鎜nian march of a second，pregnant with eternity.
Then，of a sudden，but not once troubling my conscious bliss，all the wrongs I had ever done，from far beyond my earthly memory down to the present moment，were with me.Fully in every wrong lived the conscious I，confessing，abjuring，lamenting the dead，making atonement with each person I had injured，hurt，or offended.Every human soul to which I had caused a troubled thought，was now grown unspeakably dear to me，and I humbled myself before it，agonising to cast from between us the clinging offence.I wept at the feet of the mother whose commands I had slighted；with bitter shame Iconfessed to my father that I had told him two lies，and long forgotten them：now for long had remembered them，and kept them in memory to crush at last at his feet.I was the eager slave of all whom I had thus or anyhow wronged.Countless services I devised to render them！For this one I would build such a house as had never grown from the ground！for that one I would train such horses as had never yet been seen in any world！For a third I would make such a garden as had never bloomed，haunted with still pools，and alive with running waters！I would write songs to make their hearts swell，and tales to make them glow！I would turn the forces of the world into such channels of invention as to make them laugh with the joy of wonder！Love possessed me！Love was my life！Love was to me，as to him that made me，all in all！
Suddenly I found myself in a solid blackness，upon which the ghost of light that dwells in the caverns of the eyes could not cast one fancied glimmer.But my heart，which feared nothing and hoped infinitely，was full of peace.I lay imagining what the light would be when it came，and what new creation it would bring with it--when，suddenly，without conscious volition，I sat up and stared about me.
The moon was looking in at the lowest，horizontal，crypt-like windows of the death-chamber，her long light slanting，I thought，across the fallen，but still ripening sheaves of the harvest of the great husbandman.--But no；that harvest was gone！Gathered in，or swept away by chaotic storm，not a sacred sheaf was there！My dead were gone！I was alone！--In desolation dread lay depths yet deeper than I had hitherto known！--Had there never been any ripening dead？Had I but dreamed them and their loveliness？Why then these walls？why the empty couches？No；they were all up！they were all abroad in the new eternal day，and had forgotten me！They had left me behind，and alone！Tenfold more terrible was the tomb its inhabitants away！
The quiet ones had made me quiet with their presence--had pervaded my mind with their blissful peace；now I had no friend，and my lovers were far from me！A moment I sat and stared horror-stricken.I had been alone with the moon on a mountain top in the sky；now I was alone with her in a huge cenotaph：she too was staring about，seeking her dead with ghastly gaze！I sprang to my feet，and staggered from the fearful place.
The cottage was empty.I ran out into the night.
No moon was there！Even as I left the chamber，a cloudy rampart had risen and covered her.But a broad shimmer came from far over the heath，mingled with a ghostly murmuring music，as if the moon were raining a light that plashed as it fell.I ran stumbling across the moor，and found a lovely lake，margined with reeds and rushes：the moon behind the cloud was gazing upon the monsters'den，full of clearest，brightest water，and very still.--But the musical murmur went on，filling the quiet air，and drawing me after it.
