As the air grew black and the winter closed swiftly around me,the fluttering fire blazed out more luminous,and arresting its flight,hovered waiting.So soon as I came under its radiance,it flew slowly on,lingering now and then above spots where the ground was rocky.Every time I looked up,it seemed to have grown larger,and at length gave me an attendant shadow.Plainly a bird-butterfly,it flew with a certain swallowy double.Its wings were very large,nearly square,and flashed all the colours of the rainbow.Wondering at their splendour,I became so absorbed in their beauty that Istumbled over a low rock,and lay stunned.When I came to myself,the creature was hovering over my head,radiating the whole chord of light,with multitudinous gradations and some kinds of colour Ihad never before seen.I rose and went on,but,unable to take my eyes off the shining thing to look to my steps,I struck my foot against a stone.Fearing then another fall,I sat down to watch the little glory,and a great longing awoke in me to have it in my hand.To my unspeakable delight,it began to sink toward me.Slowly at first,then swiftly it sank,growing larger as it came nearer.
I felt as if the treasure of the universe were giving itself to me--put out my hand,and had it.But the instant I took it,its light went out;all was dark as pitch;a dead book with boards outspread lay cold and heavy in my hand.I threw it in the air--only to hear it fall among the heather.Burying my face in my hands,I sat in motionless misery.
But the cold grew so bitter that,fearing to be frozen,I got up.
The moment I was on my feet,a faint sense of light awoke in me.
"Is it coming to life?"I cried,and a great pang of hope shot through me.Alas,no!it was the edge of a moon peering up keen and sharp over a level horizon!She brought me light--but no guidance!SHE would not hover over me,would not wait on my faltering steps!She could but offer me an ignorant choice!
With a full face she rose,and I began to see a little about me.
Westward of her,and not far from me,a range of low hills broke the horizon-line:I set out for it.
But what a night I had to pass ere I reached it!The moon seemed to know something,for she stared at me oddly.Her look was indeed icy-cold,but full of interest,or at least curiosity.She was not the same moon I had known on the earth;her face was strange to me,and her light yet stranger.Perhaps it came from an unknown sun!
Every time I looked up,I found her staring at me with all her might!
At first I was annoyed,as at the rudeness of a fellow creature;but soon I saw or fancied a certain wondering pity in her gaze:why was I out in her night?Then first I knew what an awful thing it was to be awake in the universe:I WAS,and could not help it!
As I walked,my feet lost the heather,and trod a bare spongy soil,something like dry,powdery peat.To my dismay it gave a momentary heave under me;then presently I saw what seemed the ripple of an earthquake running on before me,shadowy in the low moon.It passed into the distance;but,while yet I stared after it,a single wave rose up,and came slowly toward me.A yard or two away it burst,and from it,with a scramble and a bound,issued an animal like a tiger.About his mouth and ears hung clots of mould,and his eyes winked and flamed as he rushed at me,showing his white teeth in a soundless snarl.I stood fascinated,unconscious of either courage or fear.He turned his head to the ground,and plunged into it.
"That moon is affecting my brain,"I said as I resumed my journey.