It had ceased to be dark;we walked in a dim twilight,breathing through the dimness the breath of the spring.A wondrous change had passed upon the world--or was it not rather that a change more marvellous had taken place in us?Without light enough in the sky or the air to reveal anything,every heather-bush,every small shrub,every blade of grass was perfectly visible--either by light that went out from it,as fire from the bush Moses saw in the desert,or by light that went out of our eyes.Nothing cast a shadow;all things interchanged a little light.Every growing thing showed me,by its shape and colour,its indwelling idea--the informing thought,that is,which was its being,and sent it out.My bare feet seemed to love every plant they trod upon.The world and my being,its life and mine,were one.The microcosm and macrocosm were at length atoned,at length in harmony!I lived in everything;everything entered and lived in me.To be aware of a thing,was to know its life at once and mine,to know whence we came,and where we were at home--was to know that we are all what we are,because Another is what he is!Sense after sense,hitherto asleep,awoke in me--sense after sense indescribable,because no correspondent words,no likenesses or imaginations exist,wherewithal to describe them.
Full indeed--yet ever expanding,ever making room to receive--was the conscious being where things kept entering by so many open doors!When a little breeze brushing a bush of heather set its purple bells a ringing,I was myself in the joy of the bells,myself in the joy of the breeze to which responded their sweet TIN-TINNING,myself in the joy of the sense,and of the soul that received all the joys together.To everything glad I lent the hall of my being wherein to revel.I was a peaceful ocean upon which the ground-swell of a living joy was continually lifting new waves;yet was the joy ever the same joy,the eternal joy,with tens of thousands of changing forms.Life was a cosmic holiday.
Now I knew that life and truth were one;that life mere and pure is in itself bliss;that where being is not bliss,it is not life,but life-in-death.Every inspiration of the dark wind that blew where it listed,went out a sigh of thanksgiving.At last I was!
I lived,and nothing could touch my life!My darling walked beside me,and we were on our way home to the Father!
So much was ours ere ever the first sun rose upon our freedom:what must not the eternal day bring with it!
We came to the fearful hollow where once had wallowed the monsters of the earth:it was indeed,as I had beheld it in my dream,a lovely lake.I gazed into its pellucid depths.A whirlpool had swept out the soil in which the abortions burrowed,and at the bottom lay visible the whole horrid brood:a dim greenish light pervaded the crystalline water,and revealed every hideous form beneath it.Coiled in spires,folded in layers,knotted on themselves,or "extended long and large,"they weltered in motionless heaps--shapes more fantastic in ghoulish,blasting dismay,than ever wine-sodden brain of exhausted poet fevered into misbeing.He who dived in the swirling Maelstrom saw none to compare with them in horror:tentacular convolutions,tumid bulges,glaring orbs of sepian deformity,would have looked to him innocence beside such incarnations of hatefulness--every head the wicked flower that,bursting from an abominable stalk,perfected its evil significance.
Not one of them moved as we passed.But they were not dead.So long as exist men and women of unwholesome mind,that lake will still be peopled with loathsomenesses.
