登陆注册
15317200000141

第141章

They waited for the tramcar.Ursula sat on top and looked out on the town.The dusk was just dimming the hollows of crowded houses.

`And are they going to inherit the earth?' she said.

`Yes -- they.'

`Then what are we going to do?' she asked.`We're not like them -- are we? We're not the meek?'

`No.We've got to live in the chinks they leave us.'

`How horrible!' cried Ursula.`I don't want to live in chinks.'

`Don't worry,' he said.`They are the children of men, they like market-places and street-corners best.That leaves plenty of chinks.'

`All the world,' she said.

`Ah no -- but some room.'

The tramcar mounted slowly up the hill, where the ugly winter-grey masses of houses looked like a vision of hell that is cold and angular.They sat and looked.Away in the distance was an angry redness of sunset.It was all cold, somehow small, crowded, and like the end of the world.

`I don't mind it even then,' said Ursula, looking at the repulsiveness of it all.`It doesn't concern me.'

`No more it does,' he replied, holding her hand.`One needn't see.One goes one's way.In my world it is sunny and spacious --'

`It is, my love, isn't it?' she cried, hugging near to him on the top of the tramcar, so that the other passengers stared at them.

`And we will wander about on the face of the earth,' he said, `and we'll look at the world beyond just this bit.'

There was a long silence.Her face was radiant like gold, as she sat thinking.

`I don't want to inherit the earth,' she said.`I don't want to inherit anything.'

He closed his hand over hers.

`Neither do I.I want to be disinherited.'

She clasped his fingers closely.

`We won't care about anything, ' she said.

He sat still, and laughed.

`And we'll be married, and have done with them,' she added.

Again he laughed.

`It's one way of getting rid of everything,' she said, `to get married.'

`And one way of accepting the whole world,' he added.

`A whole other world, yes,' she said happily.

`Perhaps there's Gerald -- and Gudrun --' he said.

`If there is there is, you see,' she said.`It's no good our worrying.

We can't really alter them, can we?'

`No,' he said.`One has no right to try -- not with the best intentions in the world.'

`Do you try to force them?' she asked.

`Perhaps,' he said.`Why should I want him to be free, if it isn't his business?'

She paused for a time.

`We can't make him happy, anyhow,' she said.`He'd have to be it of himself.'

`I know,' he said.`But we want other people with us, don't we?'

`Why should we?' she asked.

`I don't know,' he said uneasily.`One has a hankering after a sort of further fellowship.'

`But why?' she insisted.`Why should you hanker after other people?

Why should you need them?'

This hit him right on the quick.His brows knitted.

`Does it end with just our two selves?' he asked, tense.

`Yes -- what more do you want? If anybody likes to come along, let them.

But why must you run after them?'

His face was tense and unsatisfied.

`You see,' he said, `I always imagine our being really happy with some few other people -- a little freedom with people.'

She pondered for a moment.

`Yes, one does want that.But it must happen.You can't do anything for it with your will.You always seem to think you can force the flowers to come out.People must love us because they love us -- you can't make them.'

`I know,' he said.`But must one take no steps at all? Must one just go as if one were alone in the world -- the only creature in the world?'

`You've got me,' she said.`Why should you need others? Why must you force people to agree with you? Why can't you be single by yourself, as you are always saying? You try to bully Gerald -- as you tried to bully Hermione.You must learn to be alone.And it's so horrid of you.You've got me.And yet you want to force other people to love you as well.You do try to bully them to love you.And even then, you don't want their love.'

His face was full of real perplexity.

`Don't I?' he said.`It's the problem I can't solve.I know Iwant a perfect and complete relationship with you: and we've nearly got it -- we really have.But beyond that.Do I want a real, ultimate relationship with Gerald? Do I want a final, almost extra-human relationship with him -- a relationship in the ultimate of me and him -- or don't I?'

She looked at him for a long time, with strange bright eyes, but she did not answer.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 旧年默示录

    旧年默示录

    第一人称,多半会坑,现已说明,不喜勿入。旧年,奇怪的名称,因为本就是处奇怪的店铺。出售的是什么商品,招待的是什么顾客,都不知道。如果说有什么是知道的话:不用工作就能拿到稳定的薪金,我脸不白,所以,肯定有鬼!然后,就真的遇上了鬼。
  • 持玉人

    持玉人

    玉非俗玉,曾是皇权;人无完人,酸苦荒诞!持玉者到底是谁?又有几人?且看今后分解!
  • 5分钟心理小游戏

    5分钟心理小游戏

    “你了解自己、认识自己吗?”最初接到这个问题的时候,相信很多人都会觉得好笑。可是,当你静下来独自沉思时,当你望着镜子里的自己时,当你看着熙熙攘攘的人群时,你或许会思索良久,然后问自己:“我是谁?我到底是一个什么样的人?我真的认识自己、了解自己吗?”实,这是一个古老而永恒的话题。尤其是在这个光怪陆离、五彩缤纷的现代社会,越来越多的人开始徘徊、开始迷茫,以致陷入困境,迷失自我,饱受心灵折磨。
  • 杀出个轮回

    杀出个轮回

    天道蒙蔽,地则被盗,轮回不再继续;我辈持枪,杀出一条血路,纵身死道消又如何?
  • 谁的等待,适逢花开

    谁的等待,适逢花开

    但愿来生,只作陌上的看花人;无需入尘缘,只行于陌上,看一川风花,无爱无伤。
  • 盛夏莫

    盛夏莫

    “哇,这是小狗好可爱呀!”“嗯,比你可爱多了。”“切,谁要比它可爱啊!”“……”“我决定了,我要领养它,你说呢!”“随你”“那就这么愉快的决定了,得取个名字你说叫啥呢”“随便”“要不,叫……小莫莫吧”“你敢”“有什么不敢的,有本事你咬我啊!”然后某人华丽丽的被咬了,总体来说,这是一个大腹黑与小腹黑的故事……!!!
  • 妖女倾城:王爷别惹火

    妖女倾城:王爷别惹火

    当腹黑撞上腹黑,最终只有黑吃黑!他是云端上的皇室之子,她是尘泥中的妓女之女,云与泥相撞,黑与黑相较!顶级间谍,一朝穿越,从污泥中蛮横地长出一枝独秀,千面妖娆,惑行于世,谎骗天下!推荐第九天神的文《王爷你休逃!》
  • 致三年青春之时光不老,我们不散

    致三年青春之时光不老,我们不散

    曾陪我哭陪我闹陪我玩陪我笑陪我一起罚站的教室它不见了。八百米跑道上我没有默念谁的名字只在心里想着这事初中最后一次长跑了。因为青春所以敢梦想,在梦想的路上一直狂奔!我只有一场青春我不想辜负任何人。三年是一场很长的电影我不忍心看结局。
  • 丧尸公子

    丧尸公子

    “啊!有丧尸快跑啊!”“哎哎哎,你别怕本公子不吃人肉的等等。”尼玛!龙诚此时的内心是崩溃的我是一个多诚实的丧尸,没看我名字里带个‘诚’字吗!今天在作者群里发现很多人看不懂科幻所以不看,这里我要强调我这本书是在玄幻世界的修炼大陆引发的丧尸病毒。这是一本融合了丧尸,修炼,系统的小说,希望大家支持,如果更新慢我会努力,但还在上学,尽力。作为一名新人如果喷我压力大所以希望大家多评论,多留言,多收藏。
  • 魔女传说之萘

    魔女传说之萘

    魔女浅萘一生精彩纷呈,她守护过别人,也有人守护着她,人生何处不阴谋,除了克服她一无所求。