Ere the half-hour ended， five o’clock struck； school was dismissed， and all were gone into the refectory to tea. I now ventured to descend： it was deep dusk； I retired into acorner and sat down on the floor. The spell by which I had been so far supported began to dissolve； reaction took place， and soon， so overwhelming was the grief that seized me， I sank prostrate with my face to the ground. Now I wept： Helen Burns was not here；nothing sustained me； left to myself I abandoned myself， and my tears watered the boards. I had meant to be so good， and to do so much at Lowood： to make so many friends， to earn respect and win affection. Already I had made visible progress： that very morning I had reached the head of my class； Miss Miller had praised me warmly； Miss Temple had smiled approbation； she had promised to teach me drawing， and to let me learn French， if I continued to make similar improvement two months longer： and then I was well received by my fellow-pupils； treated as an equal by those of my own age， and not molested by any； now， here I lay again crushed and trodden on； and could I ever rise more？
“Never，” I thought； and ardently I wished to die. While sobbing out this wish in broken accents， some one approached： I started up—again Helen Burns was near me； the fading fires just showed her coming up the long， vacant room； she brought my coffee and bread.
不“Come， eat something，” she said； but I put both away from me， feeling as if a drop or a crumb would have choked me in my present condition. Helen regarded me， probably with surprise： I could not now abate my agitation， though I tried hard； I continued to weep aloud. She sat down on the ground near me， embraced her knees with her arms， and rested her head upon them； in that attitude she remained silent as an Indian. I was the first who spoke—
“Helen， why do you stay with a girl whom everybody believes to be a liar？”
“Everybody， Jane？ Why， there are only eighty people who have heard you called so， and the world contains hundreds of millions.”
“But what have I to do with millions？ The eighty， I know，despise me.”
“Jane， you are mistaken： probably not one in the school either despises or dislikes you： many， I am sure， pity you much.”
“How can they pity me after what Mr. Brocklehurst has said？”
“Mr. Brocklehurst is not a god： nor is he even a great and admired man： he is little liked here； he never took steps to make himself liked. Had he treated you as an especial favourite， you would have found enemies， declared or covert， all around you； as it is， the greater number would offer you sympathy if they dared. Teachers and pupils may look coldly on you for a day or two， but friendly feelings are concealed in their hearts； and if you persevere in doing well， these feelings will ere long appear so much the more evidently for their temporary suppression. Besides， Jane”—she paused.
“Well， Helen？” said I， putting my hand into hers： she chafed my fingers gently to warm them， and went on—
“If all the world hated you， and believed you wicked， while your own conscience approved you， and absolved you from guilt， you would not be without friends.”
“No； I know I should think well of myself； but that is not enough： if others don’t love me I would rather die than live—I cannot bear to be solitary and hated， Helen. Look here； to gain some real affection from you， or Miss Temple， or any other whom I truly love， I would willingly submit to have the bone of my arm broken， or to let a bull toss me， or to stand behind a kicking horse， and let it dash its hoof at my chest—”
“Hush， Jane！ you think too much of the love of human beings；you are too impulsive， too vehement； the sovereign hand that created your frame， and put life into it， has provided you with other resources than your feeble self， or than creatures feeble as you. Besides this earth， and besides the race of men， there is an invisible world and a kingdom of spirits： that world is round us， for it is everywhere； and those spirits watch us， for they are commissioned to guard us； and if we were dying in pain and shame， if scorn smote us on all sides， and hatred crushed us， angels see our tortures， recognise our innocence (if innocent we be： as I know you are of this charge which Mr. Brocklehurst has weakly and pompously repeated at second-hand from Mrs. Reed；for I read a sincere nature in your ardent eyes and on your clear front)， and God waits only the separation of spirit from flesh to crown us with a full reward. Why， then， should we ever sink overwhelmed with distress， when life is so soon over， and death is so certain an entrance to happiness—to glory？”
I was silent； Helen had calmed me； but in the tranquillity she imparted there was an alloy of inexpressible sadness. I felt the impression of woe as she spoke， but I could not tell whence it came； and when， having done speaking， she breathed a little fast and coughed a short cough， I momentarily forgot my own sorrows to yield to a vague concern for her.
Resting my head on Helen’s shoulder， I put my arms round her waist； she drew me to her， and we reposed in silence. We had not sat long thus， when another person came in. Some heavy clouds， swept from the sky by a rising wind， had left the moon bare； and her light， streaming in through a window near， shone full both on us and on the approaching figure， which we at once recognised as Miss Temple.
“I came on purpose to find you， Jane Eyre，” said she；“I want you in my room； and as Helen Burns is with you， she may come too.”
We went； following the superintendent’s guidance， we had to thread some intricate passages， and mount a staircase before we reached her apartment； it contained a good fire， and looked cheerful. Miss Temple told Helen Burns to be seated in a low arm-chair on one side of the hearth， and herself taking another， she called me to her side.
“Is it all over？” she asked， looking down at my face. “Have you cried your grief away？”
“I am afraid I never shall do that.”
“Why？”
“Because I have been wrongly accused； and you， ma’am， and everybody else， will now think me wicked.”
