登陆注册
15687400000143

第143章 CHAPTER XXVIII(3)

Benson, he had rarely been in the Chapel-house. Mr. Benson received him courteously, but he rather expected that there would be some especial reason alleged, before the conclusion of the visit, for its occurrence; more particularly as Mr. Farquhar sat talking on the topics of the day in a somewhat absent manner, as if they were not the subjects most present to his mind. The truth was, he could not help recurring to the last time when he was in that room, waiting to take Leonard a ride, and his heart beating rather more quickly than usual at the idea that Ruth might bring the boy in when he was equipped. He was very full now of the remembrance of Ruth; and yet he was also most thankful, most self-gratulatory, that he had gone no further in his admiration of her--that he had never expressed his regard in words--that no one, as he believed, was cognisant of the incipient love which had grown partly out of his admiration, and partly out of his reason. He was thankful to be spared any implication in the nine-days' wonder which her story had made in Eccleston. And yet his feeling for her had been of so strong a character, that he winced, as with extreme pain, at every application of censure to her name. These censures were often exaggerated, it is true;but, when they were just in their judgment of the outward circumstances of the case, they were not the less painful and distressing to him. His first rebound to Jemima was occasioned by Mrs. Bradshaw's account of how severely her husband was displeased at her daughter's having taken part with Ruth; and he could have thanked and almost blessed Jemima when she dropped in ( she dared do no more) her pleading excuses and charitable explanations on Ruth's behalf. Jemima had learnt some humility from the discovery which had been to her so great a shock; standing, she had learnt to take heed lest she fell; and, when she had once been aroused to a perception of the violence of the hatred which she had indulged against Ruth, she was more reticent and measured in the expression of all her opinions. It showed how much her character had been purified from pride, that now she felt aware that what in her was again attracting Mr. Farquhar was her faithful advocacy of her rival, wherever such advocacy was wise or practicable.

He was quite unaware that Jemima had been conscious of his great admiration for Ruth; he did not know that she had ever cared enough for him to be jealous. But the unacknowledged bond between them now was their grief, and sympathy, and pity for Ruth; only in Jemima these feelings were ardent, and would fain have become active; while in Mr. Farquhar they were strongly mingled with thankfulness that he had escaped a disagreeable position, and a painful notoriety. His natural caution induced him to make a resolution never to think of any woman as a wife until he had ascertained all her antecedents, from her birth upwards; and the same spirit of caution, directed inwardly, made him afraid of giving too much pity to Ruth, for fear of the conclusions to which such a feeling might lead him. But still his old regard for her, for Leonard, and his esteem and respect for the Bensons, induced him to lend a willing ear to Jemima's earnest entreaty that he would go and call on Mr. Benson, in order that she might learn something about the family in general, and Ruth in particular. It was thus that he came to sit by Mr. Benson's study fire, and to talk, in an absent way, to that gentleman. How they got on the subject he did not know, more than one-half of his attention being distracted; but they were speaking about politics, when Mr. Farquhar learned that Mr. Benson took in no newspaper. "Will you allow me to send you over my Times ? I have generally done with it before twelve o'clock, and after that it is really waste-paper in my house. You will oblige me by making use of it." "I am sure I am very much obliged to you for thinking of it. But do not trouble yourself to send it; Leonard can fetch it." "How is Leonard now?" asked Mr. Farquhar, and he tried to speak indifferently;but a grave look of intelligence clouded his eyes as he looked for Mr.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 谜之因果:交换的身份

    谜之因果:交换的身份

    于筱晨,因为某些原因自杀了。当她醒了后,忘记了一切,包括他。她那所谓的妈妈告诉她,她叫安梓伊。之后她以安梓伊的身份活了下来。可是,安梓伊和于筱晨的很多秘密需要她解开。真正的安梓伊在哪里?于筱晨又为何自杀?她又为什么奇迹般的活了下来?安梓伊的妈妈又为何认为她就是安梓伊?还有,之后又有什么感情纠纷等着她?
  • 华娱万岁

    华娱万岁

    因为懒惰过,所以知道努力的可贵。1996年的宝岛,扑街网络写手池翰林重生成了一名高一学生,他可以铸就怎样的传奇?《第一次亲密接触》(网恋、绝症),《神啊,请给我多一点时间》(追星、操粉),《魔女的条件》(师生恋),《一公升的眼泪》……
  • 一个人的七门之争

    一个人的七门之争

    七门之战,江湖英雄于安为了百姓安危,独自收集七把神剑,却把恋人送入亡中,于安和于鸳和江湖的七把神剑纷纷坠入火山熔浆中,却不料,千年轮混,于安转世许言,又巧遇火山喷发,七把神剑化为七把神石闯入现代,七门派的苏醒,彻底打乱了现代的秩序,转世而又不知前世的许言,又会面对什么样的挫折呢,深爱的于鸳,是否也转世在这个时代呢。前世的兄弟,一个一个倒在了今生的战场上,成王败寇,一手扶持的聂王却不念旧情的赶尽杀绝。茶兮2017首推,谢谢!
  • 混在晚唐

    混在晚唐

    普通大学生穿越到唐朝末期,虽有其他穿越者的想法,却无本事,他不晓军事,五谷不分,不懂机械,不会炼钢,也不会写诗著文,更没有什么王霸之气,唯一的优势在于知道历史。在人命如草芥的乱世,他不得不“混”着保全自己,走上了一条另类的道路。
  • 看来我爱你VS看来错过了

    看来我爱你VS看来错过了

    看我,你在害怕什么?我怕,我一转身。转身?你转身怕什么?我怕,我转身后,你就不在了。不会的,我永远都在。你说的永远在哪儿呢?为何不在了?你走了对吗?你说的,为何转身?为何你抛弃了我?我就这么不让你信任吗?不然的话,你为什么不要我了?如果我知道我会爱上你的话,我一定要永远和你在一起。不让你走,这样的话,你就会留下了。多好?欢迎加入小说读者群,群号码:549474807
  • 千亿豪门:帝少,不做你的宠

    千亿豪门:帝少,不做你的宠

    为了救人,她和那个被尊为帝少的男人有了一夜交集,从此便被日夜纠缠。她拼命地逃离他,他一次次将她抓回。她忍无可忍,近乎绝望地质问他,“到底什怎么样你才肯放我走?!”他迎上她的目光看似残忍,实则温柔,“只要你爱上我,再也离不开我,我就放你走。”
  • 废材嫡小姐之逆天王爷的宠妻之道

    废材嫡小姐之逆天王爷的宠妻之道

    “你的命真大”“那是,不然怎么报仇呢?”“姐姐,你这样可不行哟~你不过就是一个废物。”“是吗?”
  • 那份独特的爱

    那份独特的爱

    独特的人,独特的爱……此文故名《那份独特的爱》咳咳,这里南木九九,是一枚刚刚开始写文的写手,请多指教!嗯……可能九九的文笔不怎么样,语文学得不好啊
  • 我的未来你在了

    我的未来你在了

    他和她在喧闹却美好的时候相遇,却走散在茫茫人海中。那一年,我弄丢了你,你弄丢了我。你很幸福也许吧即便风景再美,没有你,一切只是黑白画面。
  • 火澜

    火澜

    当一个现代杀手之王穿越到这个世界。是隐匿,还是崛起。一场血雨腥风的传奇被她改写。一条无上的强者之路被她踏破。修斗气,炼元丹,收兽宠,化神器,大闹皇宫,炸毁学院,打死院长,秒杀狗男女,震惊大陆。无止尽的契约能力,上古神兽,千年魔兽,纷纷前来抱大腿,惊傻世人。她说:在我眼里没有好坏之分,只有强弱之分,只要你能打败我,这世间所有都是你的,打不败我,就从这世间永远消失。她狂,她傲,她的目标只有一个,就是凌驾这世间一切之上。三国皇帝,魔界妖王,冥界之主,仙界至尊。到底谁才是陪着她走到最后的那个?他说:上天入地,我会陪着你,你活着,有我,你死,也一定有我。本文一对一,男强女强,强强联手,不喜勿入。