"Ah, my dear young man, don't talk about passing - for the likes of me! I'm passing away - nothing else than that. She has a better use for her young imagination (isn't it fine?) than in 'representing' in any way such a weary wasted used-up animal!" The Master spoke with a sudden sadness that produced a protest on Paul's part; but before the protest could be uttered he went on, reverting to the latter's striking novel: "I had no idea you were so good - one hears of so many things. But you're surprisingly good.""I'm going to be surprisingly better," Overt made bold to reply.
"I see that, and it's what fetches me. I don't see so much else -as one looks about - that's going to be surprisingly better.
They're going to be consistently worse - most of the things. It's so much easier to be worse - heaven knows I've found it so. I'm not in a great glow, you know, about what's breaking out all over the place. But you MUST be better - you really must keep it up. Ihaven't of course. It's very difficult - that's the devil of the whole thing, keeping it up. But I see you'll be able to. It will be a great disgrace if you don't.""It's very interesting to hear you speak of yourself; but I don't know what you mean by your allusions to your having fallen off,"Paul Overt observed with pardonable hypocrisy. He liked his companion so much now that the fact of any decline of talent or of care had ceased for the moment to be vivid to him.
"Don't say that - don't say that," St. George returned gravely, his head resting on the top of the sofa-back and his eyes on the ceiling. "You know perfectly what I mean. I haven't read twenty pages of your book without seeing that you can't help it.""You make me very miserable," Paul ecstatically breathed.
"I'm glad of that, for it may serve as a kind of warning. Shocking enough it must be, especially to a young fresh mind, full of faith - the spectacle of a man meant for better things sunk at my age in such dishonour." St. George, in the same contemplative attitude, spoke softly but deliberately, and without perceptible emotion.
His tone indeed suggested an impersonal lucidity that was practically cruel - cruel to himself - and made his young friend lay an argumentative hand on his arm. But he went on while his eyes seemed to follow the graces of the eighteenth-century ceiling:
"Look at me well, take my lesson to heart - for it IS a lesson.
Let that good come of it at least that you shudder with your pitiful impression, and that this may help to keep you straight in the future. Don't become in your old age what I have in mine - the depressing, the deplorable illustration of the worship of false gods!""What do you mean by your old age?" the young man asked.
"It has made me old. But I like your youth."Paul answered nothing - they sat for a minute in silence. They heard the others going on about the governmental majority. Then "What do you mean by false gods?" he enquired.
His companion had no difficulty whatever in saying, "The idols of the market; money and luxury and 'the world;' placing one's children and dressing one's wife; everything that drives one to the short and easy way. Ah the vile things they make one do!""But surely one's right to want to place one's children.""One has no business to have any children," St. George placidly declared. "I mean of course if one wants to do anything good.""But aren't they an inspiration - an incentive?""An incentive to damnation, artistically speaking.""You touch on very deep things - things I should like to discuss with you," Paul said. "I should like you to tell me volumes about yourself. This is a great feast for ME!""Of course it is, cruel youth. But to show you I'm still not incapable, degraded as I am, of an act of faith, I'll tie my vanity to the stake for you and burn it to ashes. You must come and see me - you must come and see us," the Master quickly substituted.
"Mrs. St. George is charming; I don't know whether you've had any opportunity to talk with her. She'll be delighted to see you; she likes great celebrities, whether incipient or predominant. You must come and dine - my wife will write to you. Where are you to be found?""This is my little address" - and Overt drew out his pocketbook and extracted a visiting-card. On second thoughts, however, he kept it back, remarking that he wouldn't trouble his friend to take charge of it but would come and see him straightway in London and leave it at his door if he should fail to obtain entrance.
"Ah you'll probably fail; my wife's always out - or when she isn't out is knocked up from having been out. You must come and dine -though that won't do much good either, for my wife insists on big dinners." St. George turned it over further, but then went on:
"You must come down and see us in the country, that's the best way;we've plenty of room, and it isn't bad."
"You've a house in the country?" Paul asked enviously.
"Ah not like this! But we have a sort of place we go to - an hour from Euston. That's one of the reasons.""One of the reasons?"
"Why my books are so bad."
"You must tell me all the others!" Paul longingly laughed.
His friend made no direct rejoinder to this, but spoke again abruptly. "Why have I never seen you before?"The tone of the question was singularly flattering to our hero, who felt it to imply the great man's now perceiving he had for years missed something. "Partly, I suppose, because there has been no particular reason why you should see me. I haven't lived in the world - in your world. I've spent many years out of England, in different places abroad.""Well, please don't do it any more. You must do England - there's such a lot of it.""Do you mean I must write about it?" and Paul struck the note of the listening candour of a child.
"Of course you must. And tremendously well, do you mind? That takes off a little of my esteem for this thing of yours - that it goes on abroad. Hang 'abroad!' Stay at home and do things here -do subjects we can measure."
