She knew that he should before long go out to his office as usual, and she wanted to see him before that, so that their attitude to one another might be defined.
She walked across the drawing room and went resolutely to him.
When she went into his study he was in official uniform, obviously ready to go out, sitting at a little table on which he rested his elbows, looking dejectedly before him. She saw him before he saw her, and she knew that he was thinking of her.
On seeing her, he would have risen, but changed his mind, then his face flushed hotly - a thing Anna had never seen before, and he got up quickly and went to meet her, looking not at her eyes, but above them, at her forehead and hair. He went up to her, took her by the hand, and asked her to sit down.
`I am very glad you have come,' he said, sitting down beside her, and, obviously wishing to say something, he stuttered. Several times he attempted to speak, but stopped. In spite of the fact, that in preparing herself for meeting him, she had schooled herself to despise and accuse him, she did not know what to say to him, and she felt pity for him. And so the silence lasted rather long: `Is Seriozha quite well?' he said, and, without waiting for an answer, he added: `I shan't be dining at home today, and I must go out directly.'
`I had thought of going to Moscow,' she said.
`No, you did quite, quite right to come,' he said, and was silent again.
Seeing that he was powerless to begin the conversation, she began herself.
`Alexei Alexandrovich,' she said, looking at him and without dropping her eyes under his persistent gaze at her hair, `I'm a guilty woman, I'm a bad woman, yet I am the same as I was, as I told you then, and I have come to tell you that I can change nothing.'
`I haven't asked you about that,' he said, all at once, resolutely and with hatred looking her straight in the face; `that was as I had supposed.'
Under the influence of anger he apparently regained complete possession of all his faculties. `But as I told you then, and have written to you,'
he said in a thin, shrill voice, `I repeat now, that I am not bound to know this. I ignore it. Not all wives are so kind as you, to be in such a hurry to communicate such agreeable news to their husbands.' He laid special emphasis on the word `agreeable.' `I shall ignore it so long as the world knows nothing of it, so long as my name is not disgraced. And so I simply inform you that our relations must be just as they have always been, and that only in the event of your compromising yourself I shall be obliged to take steps to secure my honor.'
`But our relations cannot be the same as always,' Anna began in a timid voice, looking at him with dismay.
When she saw once more those composed gestures, heard that shrill, childlike and sarcastic voice, her aversion for him extinguished her pity for him, and she felt only afraid; but at all costs she wanted to make clear her position.
`I cannot be your wife while I...' she began.
He laughed a cold and malignant laugh.
`The manner of life you have chosen is reflected, I suppose, in your ideas. I have so much of both respect and contempt - I respect your past and despise your present - that I was far from the interpretation you put on my words.'
Anna sighed and bowed her head.
`Though indeed I fail to comprehend how, with the independence you show,' he went on, getting hot, `announcing your infidelity to your husband and seeing nothing reprehensible in it, apparently, you can see anything reprehensible in performing a wife's duties in relation to your husband.'
`Alexei Alexandrovich! What is it you want of me?'
`I want never to meet that man here, and I want you to conduct yourself so that neither society, nor the servants, could possibly reproach you.... I want you not to see him. That's not much, I think. And in return you will enjoy all the privileges of a faithful wife without fulfilling her duties. That's all I have to say to you. Now it's time for me to go.
I'm not dining at home.' He got up and moved toward the door.
Anna got up too. Bowing in silence, he let her pass before him.
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